happy birthday kim jaejoong, our resident old guy, 4d prince and umma!

i have so much to say to you, and i hope that my birthday project is in the mail and on its way to you right now. the moments i spent in your presence were the best moments of my life; those few seconds that you spoke to me, stared at me and only at me, give me the will to live on and find happiness. you lead me to the road that i am on right now, one that’s bright, full of hope and blessings. 

i only can pray and wish that you’re on that road too; i know you’re lonely, jaejoong, you say that yourself. but remember that despite all this, you’re not alone, you’re never alone. you have the support and love of hundreds of thousands of fans, friends, and family.

you’re worth every tear because the joy and memories that you give us in return are worth more than anything. your happiness, that precious smile, that beautiful laugh, they’re worth more than anything i could ever ask for. you are so precious to me, kim jaejoong. i love you so much. happy birthday! 난 너를 사랑해!

Absolutely not! Never! I don’t want to go on a vacation. I have a wish that I would have time to stay a long time in the new house that I’ve moved into. When I am alone, that feels lonely and that feels good. I also have the wish that I want to rest without any thoughts. - jaejoong

(Source: changkyus)

012686 | 26/27, HA OLD GEEZER | HAPPY BIRTHDAY 
MAN-IN-DENIAL-OF-HIS-AGE A.K.A KIM JAEJOONG! ♥

I honestly don’t know where to start. I have so much I want to say but words aren’t enough. But I am so so so thankful I came to know you. I’ve only known you for almost a year but I came to love you more and more and now, it’s just too much for me to handle. Damn you and your charms.

You are very special to me. You’ve been a part of me. I may not know you in real life or have spoken to you but living in this same planet with you makes me feel really close to you. 

Yes, you have flaws and all and there are times when I seriously look at a picture of you and ask, “Why are you so perfect? How can someone like you exist in this world? How are you even human?” And yes, you are aging, my dear bias, haha.

You are just…perfectly imperfect.

I didn’t know you yet when you injured your leg rehearsing for Rising Sun but as soon as I saw the video and you said “I’m not in pain at all.” I started crying. You just love us so much that you claim you’re okay even though you’re not.

I know that behind those flawless performances and breathtaking smiles, you’re actually very lonely. You don’t know how much I wanted to teleport to your house when you tweeted about being alone on Christmas. Whenever I see videos of you crying, I just want to hug you and say that it’s okay to let it all out and it’ll all be okay.

Everything might be different now but I assure you, you’ll be fine; you guys will be fine. You may act strong and all but it’s fine to say whatever’s on your mind. It’s fine to cry.

Thank you so much for all your struggles and hard work in order to take place in auditions; if it wasn’t for you and your will, I may not be here, typing this long ass message and supporting you.

Thank you for your time in actually tweeting for your fans, you don’t know how happy you make us. Thank you for being strong. Thank you for your wonderful voice which makes me feel better when I’m upset. Thank you for your smiles, even though you’re actually hurting inside. Thank you for everything. Thank you, Jaejoong.

Thank you so much for existing.

Happy Birthday, Kim Jaejoong. I love you.